Archive for February, 2010

The 2010 Winter Olympics are over!

Posted in Thoughts with tags , , , on February 28, 2010 by Mitch Leuraner

Finally. <sigh>

Blogging in a drunken stupor

Posted in Random with tags , , on February 25, 2010 by Mitch Leuraner

Well, not quite.  I did drink most of a bottle of wine tonight though – which definitely takes the edge off the week. Oh, Yellow Tail Shiraz, you make Thursday so much more bearable! You also help to turn shoveling a foot of heavy, wet February snow from a chore into … well, it was still a chore but it didn’t seem so bad.  And I didn’t even have any mittens!

Okay! Bring on Friday! I’m ready!

Saturn’s moon Enceladus

Posted in Finds with tags , , , on February 24, 2010 by Mitch Leuraner

I came across this image earlier today while I should have been working.  I’m not sure exactly what it is that I find so fascinating about it, but I’ve been drawn to it all morning. Thanks for killing my productivity today Cassini. Click through to see the full-sized image.

Saturn’s moon Enceladus

Saturn’s moon Enceladus (Source: NASA/JPL/Space Science Institute)

Invisible

Posted in Finds with tags , , , , on February 23, 2010 by Mitch Leuraner

Stumbled on this tonight: Invisible.

I like it.

It made me think about my own neighbours and the anxiety they cause me by simply being outside as I leave or return home.  I think I would be happy to have this woman live above me.

Psychedelic dreams

Posted in Dreams with tags , , on February 21, 2010 by Mitch Leuraner

I rarely remember dreams, but I’ve always wished I could remember more of them because the bits that I do remember are intriguing.  As a kid I always felt like I was missing out on something – like there was something cool going on that I was never included in.  The feeling was enough to drive me to read every dream book I could get my hands on.  Half of them were garbage of course, giving little more than new age interpretations of the appearance of certain images. The other half just went completely over my head as highly technical psychology texts.

Eventually I learned that many of my dreams manage to find their way out of my head through various forms of parasomnia (sleep behaviours). I won’t go into details, but somniloquy (sleep-talking) is pretty well the least embarrassing of the things I’ve been known to do. I’ve never been to see any kind of specialist, but once in a while I seriously consider it.

In any case, this post isn’t about the random acts of insanity I perform while sleeping – it’s about the feelings I often wake up with. For some reason, every so often I wake up with no recollection of dreaming at all, but with an incredibly strong emotion consuming me. Most of the time the emotion is so strong that I think it is actually the reason that I have woken up in the first place. It doesn’t happen with any one emotion more than any other – sometimes I’m at the point of laughing, once I was literally crying.

But this morning was just plain weird: I woke up with the most absolute, heart-crushing disappointment. And I was completely and utterly (though figuratively) paralyzed by it. And I laid in bed for at least ten minutes, just staring at the ceiling trying to come to grips with this disappointment before I realized how absurd it was.

Why was I disappointed? What could have created such anguish? For that 10 minutes I had but one single thought in my mind:

I will never have the opportunity to see the The Psychedelic Furs in concert.

Ya. Did I mention it was weird? And do you know what made it weirder? The whole time I could hear The Ghost in You playing in my head.

So, any new-agers want to hazard a guess at what my subconscious was trying to tell me?

The Google buzz

Posted in Thoughts with tags , , , on February 18, 2010 by Mitch Leuraner

I’ve been thinking a little about Google’s recent Buzz debacle, and the flurry of responses to it.  On the surface, one could be forgiven for believing that Google might be somewhat unhappy about the way that their latest and greatest service came into the universe.  There’s certainly been all kinds of criticism, including a stern finger wagging from Canada’s Privacy Commissioner.

But when you think about it, has Google really taken a hit?  The people I’ve talked to (the ones with Gmail addresses of course) were initially annoyed that a list of their most frequent contacts could have been exposed to the world.  But most eventually realized that they hadn’t really been negatively affected by the situation and rather quickly moved on. I definitely have not met a single person who felt so strongly about the breach that they were prepared to stop using their Gmail address.

On the contrary, I have spoken to more than a few people who hadn’t even noticed the Buzz button until after the privacy stories broke – and once they checked it out, they were enthusiastic about using it!  Would they have adopted the new service so quickly if they hadn’t heard about it on the news?

Now, I’m not saying that Google intentionally allowed the privacy issues to slip through just for the publicity. There’s simply no evidence to support such an accusation.

But, I wonder if Google hasn’t become so big that it is no longer concerned about bad publicity generally. Is the giant so comfortable that it no longer foresees any possibility of risk associated with the introduction of new products? I think it’s possible.  For one thing, how come Buzz completely skipped the Google Labs? Nobody would have complained at all if the privacy issues had been identified in the lab, and Buzz really is just an extension to Gmail that could have been vetted in the labs just like countless others. But this situation seems to fit suspiciously well within the famous Google slogan:

“Don’t be evil.”

It’s an interesting slogan. Initially, it invites people to feel good about supporting the company. At the same time, it indirectly suggests that Google’s competitors are, well, evil. Clearly the idea of this slogan is to leave people with the impression that Google wants to be a good corporate citizen.

But take another look.

The slogan doesn’t say anything about Google being good, or nice, or even polite. We tend to presume that if something is not evil, it must be good – but that isn’t really the only option.  What this slogan actually says is not that Google strives to be benevolent, but that Google strives to be benign.

Well, a tumor can be benign too, but that doesn’t mean I want one.

So why isn’t Google’s slogan ‘Be good’?  Why have they opted for a negative negative, instead of a straight positive? I think it is because the company doesn’t want the limitations that striving to be good would create.

Google can pretty easily defend the current slogan by simply claiming that the Buzz issues were an accident. Google wasn’t being evil, it just made a mistake. But the reverse slogan could not be justified so easily – mistakes are never good, even if they are unavoidable.

To be fair, Google has done a lot of good for the development of the internet, if not the world at large. I’m certainly happy with the immediate and relevant results that appear when I use the search, and Google Maps with Streets View has completely changed the way that I travel.

But at the same time, (hypocritically for sure) I worry that continuing to feed the giant is a dangerous path to follow.

Today the giant doesn’t want to be evil, but what about tomorrow?

Facebook project update

Posted in Thoughts with tags , , , on February 18, 2010 by Mitch Leuraner

It seems that my Facebook project is taking off significantly slower than I had anticipated.  Dispite all the hype and hoop-law around social networks and privacy issues, people seem to be genuinely hesitant to add a stranger as a “friend”.  Now I readily admit that social networking has never really been my thing – online and offline, I’m just not that good at it. In fact, the Facebook profile that I have created specifically for this project really is the only one that I have. There isn’t some other Mitch Leuraner profile with connections to dozens of my friends and family. (At least, not one managed by me!)

But when I came up with the idea of creating a profile specifically for interacting with complete strangers, I figured it would be easy.  It feels like the media has been constantly warning people about the dangers of allowing personal aspects of their lives to be displayed.

I figured that, since everyone had already become comfortable with strangers pretending to be “friends”, I would surely be able to gain trust by admitting to my plans upfront.

Surely nobody would object to such a simple project…

Well, I was wrong for sure. (And so was the media!) So far I’ve found that people are genernally not willing to share their lives with me.  And I can’t really blame them of course – other than the knowledge that they are contributing to my own understanding of humanity, they have nothing to gain from letting me into their lives.

But, I’ve been thinking about the near wholesale rejection (at time of writing I had only managed to amass three friends) in terms of what it might say about people, our news media, and online social networking in general.

I’m not ready to proclaim that all friends really are friends, but I am learning that few friends are actually strangers.

For now, the project continues.  I’ll keep you posted.

ps. Take a look in the links (on the right side of the home page) to find my Facebook profile!

Culinary rules

Posted in Rules with tags , , on February 14, 2010 by Mitch Leuraner

You know what? I don’t care what anyone else says:

Garlic should only be smellable when my face is within  approximately 40 to 50 centimeters from the plate.

I don’t want to smell it throughout the whole house.

I have an idea….

Posted in Thoughts with tags , on February 14, 2010 by Mitch Leuraner

Well, at least a had an idea – but I’ve lost it.  It was a great idea too.  I remember specifically thinking that I should write about when I got home.  I can remember exactly where I was when I thought it, and I even remember thinking that I was probably going to forget about it.  Clearly I should have put more energy into remember the actual idea, and spent less time thinking about other things.

Anyway, I promise I’ll write about it as soon as I remember it again.  If I remember it again.

This happens to me way too often.

Denial

Posted in Thoughts with tags , , on February 11, 2010 by Mitch Leuraner

Whoever said that absence makes the heart grow fonder was in denial.  What absence actually does is make the mind grow suspicious, and it happens that we tend to rationalize that suspicion by calling it love.

Of course most of the time the suspicion in subconscious.  We have no idea that the sick feeling in the pit of the stomach is a product of millions of years of evolution that have conditioned us to be worried about losing a partner.  We just know that the feeling goes away when that partner returns.

Other times the suspicion is more obvious. We start to think about things that the partner could be doing without us – terrible things that we know we could never live with.  And that is when accusations are made – whether they be spoken out loud, or just in the mind.  Of course, this suspicion is merely a form of jealousy that grows as it feeds on itself.

Jealous suspicion begins so easily, and it is a byproduct of loving someone enough to worry about losing them.

But let’s face it, jealous suspicion is no more love itself than is the beating a jealous husband gives his wife ‘for her own good’.

No, absence does not make the heart grow fonder.

On the other hand,  absinthe – now that’s another story…